the whole “anger is poisonous and bad for u” mindset was created by people who didn’t want to deal w the justified anger directed at them by others
anger is powerful and important, anger is fuel, and only you determine whether or not your anger is good or bad for you
man. man! i finished that john darnielle book today and i hope that whole “growing impending doom as you get closer to the end” deal was intentional cause it totally worked as evidenced by the goosebumps the size of planets i got during those last 5 pages.
but also fuck you for a mild existential crisis over a game of choices leading to more choices that all change everything extending out to infinity for the goal of reaching a star-shaped fortress of safety and you either pick one already or you die but that’s still GOOD and RELEVANT because WHOA, LIFE!
okay that’s all i have to say about that.
Asa Smith. Celestial Illustrations from Smith’s Illustrated Astronomy. 1851.
Wood engravings with hand highlighting, written by the principal of Public School No. 12 in New York City with the goal “to present all the distinguishing principles in physical Astronomy with as few words as possible”.
Simple 3 colour drawings of every Smash Bros character!
Trying to capture their details with such small palettes was challenging and a lot of fun!
"There are actually three stories; as with almost all of my songs, there’s this recurring triumvirate structure that imposes itself without my even realizing it at first. The three subjects are always connected, but often in merely intuitive or symbolic ways. In this particular song, the most straightforward subject is my then-dog, Sadie, who passed on recently. She was a lovely white Labrador who liked nothing more in the whole world than to play fetch. And I’ve always been impatient about that; I’d look at the soggy pinecone dropped at my feet while I was trying to get into my car, and I’d say, “I’ll play with you later.”
The second subject of the song is a friend, my age, who was diagnosed with cancer. I remember marveling at the reaction of people around me, the way they sprung to action, finally articulated to her their love and appreciation, finally made those lunch dates they’d always talked about…and I sheepishly include myself in this phenomenon. It wasn’t disingenuous; it was just that our collective illusion, that we have forever to let someone know how loved she is, had been shattered.
The third subject is one of my most beloved friends, whom I’ve grown apart from. We had this sort of running argument, or a running series of disagreements founded on the same fundamental points of divergence, and if we had been close at that point, talking every day or whatnot, then those disagreements would have seemed like nothing. But because our correspondence had fallen behind, and we’d developed insecurities and bitterness, these disagreements became all-consuming; we fixated on them, let resentments build around them, let a silence build between us. And I remember just having my breath taken from me in one sickening moment when I paused one day to imagine what I’d do if this friend fell ill with cancer, like my other friend. I knew that I would fly to be with her, stay by her side forever if I had to, and revel in her extraordinary rarity, intelligence, kindness, forget all the shitty stupid petty small points of contention between us, because they were so insignificant in light of our own inevitable mortality.
So. Those are the basic subjects of the song. It’s about all sorts of things, but I guess the main story is about death, love, putting things off…”
i don’t know why i’m even thinking about this because i haven’t thought about it in a long time but i feel weirdly reflective so
getting misty eyed thinking about how at least a part of me seeing myself as my own whole person and learning how to believe in myself and think that i’m great and important and deserve to take up space and define my own life and can overcome anything is definitely because of kanye and i’m not sure if i can think of any other artist that’s influenced me past being able to relate to songs and full on helped change me as a person